Saturday, October 22, 2011

Ten Twenty-Two Eleven

A really wonderful day – warm weather (80s), hair appointment, gym, massage and Paradise Foods ribs for dinner.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Ten Twenty-One Eleven

I am so grateful to be married to my husband and am joyful when watching him play with his band.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Ten Eighteen Eleven

A year ago today we came home early from our Hawaii vacation because Kona was not eating and spent our last month with him—I really miss him.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Ten Twelve Eleven

It has been a good day today – I slept late since I was working from home, we were shortlisted for a project, we have another project moving forward and I finished the taxes with a nice big refund coming, and all this with a migraine which has now subsided.

I had a dream about Kona last night.

It was the first dream I had about him since he died almost 11 months ago. In the dream he was living with someone else and was called something else. But I went over to him, called him and hugged him and buried my face in his fur and cried and cried. And then it was time to give him his medicine and the person he was with let me give it to him, except rather than dipping his pills in cream cheese I had to do the push it down his throat manuever, and I thought in the dream how much easier it was with his big throat versus Zora’s little throat.

I woke up crying. I am still crying thinking about him. I could so feel him as I hugged him, my heart was heavy because I knew he wasn’t coming home with me, that he belonged somewhere else.

I miss him so.

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Sunday, October 9, 2011

Ten Seven Eleven

We won the big project that we interviewed for which takes off some pressure for me in finding other work to win.

Ten Eight Eleven

The massage left my body delightfully sore and happily relaxed.

Thursday, October 6, 2011